Slip on my nike's, and my crinkled blue wind breaker.
They don't know these are what I wear to keep warm.
Out the door, a quarter past seven. Twenty minutes till town,
Till actual civilization.
They call this place the boonies, the land of the lost,
Or is it just The Last Frontier?
Can't remember which was more accurate,
Being secluded, or blazing trails.
A few steps from the porch my lungs recognize the sharp, icy air
Deep inhale, then let it out.
Breath billowing, visible for a brief moment.
It's only September, but the frost is already settling in.
Few more steps towards the frigid green dodge.
The fallen leaves crackle and
You were the highlight of my summer
You were the voice inside my head
But now when I hear your name
My heart fills with dread.
That sandy-blonde hair
Those baby-blue eyes
I really thought
You weren't like other guys.
But as Summer faded
And Autumn rolled
Something changed
As my friends already foretold.
Life was moving
Slipping through the cracks
Pieces kept surfacing
Unrealized facts.
You left me
Without even a decent good-bye
I clinged to all I had
I managed to try.
I couldn't function
My head wasn't straight
Everything halted
To an unmoving rate.
But I didn't hate you
That's still something I can't do
My heart
Just hold me once more
Before I depart
For my life is far away
And this fairy tale will eventually end
Please don't let go just yet
I'll lean a little closer
Close your eyes
This feels right
Standing in front of you
Feeling completely complete
Don't you know that I love you
Makes this goodbye so bittersweet
A little while longer
And I'll once again be in your strong arms
Leaning so close; Not so far away
I don't need you
So swing batta batta
'Cause I'm sure you're gonna miss
A fleeting heart once you steal that home-run
You just run with it
So swing batta batta
You're on your last strike
Swing batta batta
One more out, the game is over
Too bad you're too far down for it to count
So swing batta batta
We both know it won't help.
That which is mere suspicion
leads fools to make false claims
Changes friendships into lost causes
leaves those left behind
When the reason to believe is forged
conclusions are made and araigned quickly
Testimony not heard clear
till sorrow fills their empty souls
Lest there be hope for tomorrow
that the clean slate be presented.
When Broken hearted stand up
to say it's a lie.
I have to believe in my heart
and rise to reject such words.
Playing boys used to be my high
but you changed the game for me.
Gave me a dose of something.
I can't get enough.
Though we have parted
and our love ended on a sour note.
The time we shared let me know
that love is real.
You showed me that.
Once in love always in love
not always the case
but love is always never ending.
I'd face a thousand years of pain
just to have something like that again.
To feel like my place is filled.
And that I'm really wanted.
I pray
that one day we'll both be happy.
Maybe not together
Slip on my nike's, and my crinkled blue wind breaker.
They don't know these are what I wear to keep warm.
Out the door, a quarter past seven. Twenty minutes till town,
Till actual civilization.
They call this place the boonies, the land of the lost,
Or is it just The Last Frontier?
Can't remember which was more accurate,
Being secluded, or blazing trails.
A few steps from the porch my lungs recognize the sharp, icy air
Deep inhale, then let it out.
Breath billowing, visible for a brief moment.
It's only September, but the frost is already settling in.
Few more steps towards the frigid green dodge.
The fallen leaves crackle and
You were the highlight of my summer
You were the voice inside my head
But now when I hear your name
My heart fills with dread.
That sandy-blonde hair
Those baby-blue eyes
I really thought
You weren't like other guys.
But as Summer faded
And Autumn rolled
Something changed
As my friends already foretold.
Life was moving
Slipping through the cracks
Pieces kept surfacing
Unrealized facts.
You left me
Without even a decent good-bye
I clinged to all I had
I managed to try.
I couldn't function
My head wasn't straight
Everything halted
To an unmoving rate.
But I didn't hate you
That's still something I can't do
My heart
Just hold me once more
Before I depart
For my life is far away
And this fairy tale will eventually end
Please don't let go just yet
I'll lean a little closer
Close your eyes
This feels right
Standing in front of you
Feeling completely complete
Don't you know that I love you
Makes this goodbye so bittersweet
A little while longer
And I'll once again be in your strong arms
Leaning so close; Not so far away
I don't need you
So swing batta batta
'Cause I'm sure you're gonna miss
A fleeting heart once you steal that home-run
You just run with it
So swing batta batta
You're on your last strike
Swing batta batta
One more out, the game is over
Too bad you're too far down for it to count
So swing batta batta
We both know it won't help.
That which is mere suspicion
leads fools to make false claims
Changes friendships into lost causes
leaves those left behind
When the reason to believe is forged
conclusions are made and araigned quickly
Testimony not heard clear
till sorrow fills their empty souls
Lest there be hope for tomorrow
that the clean slate be presented.
Current Residence: my appartment Favourite genre of music: Country MP3 player of choice: iPod Favourite cartoon character: Snoopy Personal Quote: Be not afraid of Greatness; Some are born Great, Some acheive Greatness, And Some have Greatness thr
Favourite Movies
Transporter3
Favourite Writers
Emily Dickens
Other Interests
Art, friends, family, animals, God... The list goes on
Well, one, its been a LONG time since the last journal entry. I've never been good at keeping a journal any how. Secondly I haven't updated much, added a few poems, but other than that and some old acrylic work I've been pretty lacking in both time and inspiration. Lame sauce!
This is mainly just an update for those who actually follow me, and of course all of those friends that I've lost touch with over the years. That is if they are even on their DA accounts. Any way...
Life's been quite hectic as always. What else can you expect, right?
I'm currently unemployed. Not such a great thing for a poor college student. And on top of that I'm
Well lets just say when it rains it literally pours! lol These past few months have been hell on earth... almost.
To start things at the end of March we (my family and I) found out that my uncle has been diagnosed with stage four lung cancer that has spread to his liver and brain. He lives in a completely different state so I don't get to visit him. I do wish I could though.
Only after finding out this informathion we (my mom and I) get a phone call that my dad's mom has passed. My Grammie. It was a complete shock to my system and my family rushed down to Minnesota for the funeral. It was an open casket thing, but I couldn't go near it. I l
Centaur:
[x] You are rather wild, and let your instincts run you.
[] You get drunk a lot.
[] Bravery and boldness is second nature to you.
[x] You have a deep love for astronomy and the universe.
[] You like to read your daily horoscope.
[] You have a high level of pride in yourself.
[] In the woods is the best place for you to be.
[] You are spiritual.
[] The horse is your favorite animal.
[x] You are possessive and territorial.
Total: 3
Elf:
[] Your ears are slightly pointed at the tips.
[] You are very intelligent.
[] Your five senses are extremely keen.
[] Your weight is quite a bit lighter than the average person at your